It's important, this time of year to reflect and to take stock of your life and mainly to focus on the things you are grateful for and proud of. Xmas is all about positivity and the excitement of the prospects that lay ahead of us. I think These are values I have neglected recently, and I should really rectify this now.
First and foremost I am thankful that I am healthy and I have enough food on my table and money in my pocket to feel fairly comfortable. Occasionally squeezed but nothing that nessecarily overshadows my enjoyment of life. These things I feel I take for granted far too often. And this is always hammered home when I think about my family living in scotland struggling to make ends meet and even through their persistant struggling still managing to keep a smile on their faces everytime something comes along and kicks them while their down. My family shows me that so long as we band together when we need to, things will be alright in the end, the dogged determination of my family makes me feel proud to be one of them, sometimes I want to throttle them, sometimes I want to hug them, sometimes I feel so ridiculously homesick that it's just plain silly. I love them a lot, all of them, despite their weaknesses. I only want them to be happy
I am thankful for all the friends I have made over the years, seriously guys and girls. Where would I be without the majority of you. You listen to me whine and prattle on ....incidentally, prattle is a very cool word and should be used more often... you give me support and inspiration. You pull me up when I am down and hold me up when I need you. Its said that a person can be measured on the strength of their friends, in which case I seriously am one of the luckiest little girls alive. I'm not trying to be cliche or sappy, I honestly mean it. Some of you really have changed my life, made me sit up and honestly start to like myself.
And of course then theres paul. I whine about him far too much but regardless of how big issues gets they will never get bigger than the overwhelming love I feel for him. A man who taught me that I could, not only reach for the stars but pluck them from the sky if I wanted. his unfaltering belief in me just really allowed me to mend emotional wounds i'd harboured for years. I like that I can tell him anything, I like that he can be really calm and levelheaded when he needs to be and equally a complete fruitloop in the next breath. he's silly and clever and well, he's been a very good boy this year.
I whine about my job far too often too, but to be honest I feel lucky that I even have a job, I enjoy doing something thats slightly out of the ordinary. Yeah the job winds me up a lot but its five minutes walk away its a job I know inside and out and in some areas its fairly flexible. I could be much worse off.
also my music seems to be going from strength to strength, several gigs already booked next year including 4 days at the edinburgh fringe festival and even a much stronger potential for glastonbury this year than there was the last year. Having been on the radio this year at easter was also quite a surprise. Then there was all the artwork that suddenly popped out of nowhere and the creation of a story so long it was novel sized (it hasnt been abandonned honest honest, just 3 chapters to go) I do feel like I have accomplished things this year, finished my first year of Open uni properly and 2nd year courses start in feb (design and designing is the name of the course)
So what does 2011 have to offer? I know im gonna be a new aunty as daddys sister is expecting so yay yay, but other than that...I havent a clue, but lets not jump right into it just yet. Lets just enjoy here, and now, if only for a moment. I'm feeling pretty good and I hope everyone has a brilliant christmas and i'll see you on the other side.
Merry crissmas everyone. I truely wish you all the greatest of seasons
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